Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim
During this Deedar, there is a strange restlessness and peace at the same time. Perhaps this is the anxiety of waiting to meet the beloved. The Deedar of the 50th Imam, Shah Rahim al-Husayni (a.s.). Although this is an outward Deedar which is like a gate towards spiritual Deedar, Noorani Deedar.
So, in this Deedar, I want to lose myself in such a way that I can see the Noor of the Imam within my own self. The very first thing I want to do is self-improvement. My faith teaches me to always find my own mistakes and improve them, to work on myself. So this time, I want to upgrade my version and take it to 2.0.
I hope I can fix all the bugs of 1.0. Until the bugs of version 1.0 are fixed, I cannot think about software 2.0. I want to only look at my own shortcomings, stop criticising others, stop judging anyone, and get rid of my fake anxiety.
Inshaallah, Imam will accept this intention and grant me the courage to become a better and more virtuous murid. Ameen.